Wintery blast

Its almost 8.00am on a Saturday morning and it is a pretty awful wintery day...grey, dismal, raining, windy and I am so glad that I am tucked up inside, still in bed. I have put the heat pump on to try and heat the house up before I venture up and out. I have an appointment at 10.00am down the road to get a haircut and in all honesty, I could quite easily keep my ass stuck in this bed. But I know on Monday morning when I am getting ready for work, I would deeply regret that decision! But for now, I revel in being toasty warm in bed.

My emotioms feel a bit like an Auckland day...it can be four seasons in one day here and thats how I feel with my emotions. Perhaps not quite in a day...or maybe...hubby and kids could probably answer that more precisely.

It has been a really good week. I am thoroughly enjoying work, not that I don't usually. But sometimes it is a struggle to get there (once I am there, I am fine). But for now, I have a renewed sense of being there. I feel like I haven't been on my game the last few months or so, but now I feel completely different - I have a renewed confidence in my ability. I haven't been so tired as I stopped taking the higher dose of codeine. This has affected my ability to get through work greatly. They were making me so tired, to the point where I was fighting to keep my eyes open, and driving home was scary with the same issue. I would be in bed about 7.00 / 7.30pm, falling asleep not too far from that time. For now, the paracodeine which has a much lower dose of codeine in it, is keeping my aches at bay so am ensuring I take them four hourly. My aches seem to be a bit like my emotioms - up and down. And for now, the aches aren't too bad and its wonderful to have a reprieve from them for a while.

For me now, going to bed early is my way of managing my tiredness, so that I am able to function the next day. After sitting up all day in an office chair, when I get home, all I want to do is lie down. So I wander off to bed and read or play games on the ipad until such time as I am unable to keep my eyes open any longer. I was pleasantly surprised as I was able to go out to the movies with the girls from work the other night. Admittedly it was a 6.00pm session but it was lovely to be out of the house and socialising and the movie finished at 8.30pm so I was still home quite early. And then ended up sitting on my bed with my girls talking and laughing until 11.00pm...it was just lovely. God, I love those girls! They are the light of my life xx

I went to the movies again last night (to see the same movie again because I loved it so much!) with my younger daughter and her boyfriend. It was a 9.00pm session and I was feeling pretty damn good, but admittedly towards the end of the movie, I was flagging...but I made it! We saw War from the Planet of the Apes. I so enjoyed it...talk about four seasons in one day - in this movie, I laughed and I cried and then I laughed some more and then I cried again...jeepers creepers - I was exhausted by the end of it!

So what does this weekend bring? Peace and quiet...lots of downtime and probably a big  power bill! But thats ok. I think of all those people whose houses are flooding in this storm, or those who don't even have homes who are sleeping rough out there...how lucky am I. I need to be reminded of that every so often.

So nice to be back in a good place...even if it is in shitty weather:)

Saturday 22nd July - 8.26am