I am so good at getting angry with people and holding a grudge these days. But at the end of the day, these three men are all family and life is too short to spend it mad, unless people really deserve it, (and believe me, there are a couple!) If I can clear the air with people who aren’t family, then surely it is more important to do so with actual family members. Some relationships are just too important, especially when you have been very close to them in the past. It has truly felt like such a heart warming, cleansing few days. I feel like it has lifted a wee bit of a burden off of my shoulders.
When it came to making up with hubbys younger son, I am really glad he came up. Even if he needed a bit more courage with his older brothers presence. The bond of parent and child is such an important one and I am sure my being so angry with my step son was a bit of a strain for my husband although he understood the reasoning. But at the end of the day, this young man is still hubbys blood and so I really hope this relationship continues and that he believes I am very happy to have him back in our lives.
Its been a few days since guy fawkes and blasted crackers are still going off. One of our many neighbours is having a good go at letting the damn things off and as I type this out, I can hear in the background, what sounds like huge shells going off. Then the realisation hits me, of course! It has to be the local community fireworks event this evening. I remember those days when my girls were younger. Actually, we only ever went to one fireworks show but it was fantastic! But every year, we used to light firecrackers in our back yard, usually with friends or family over to share the fun. But I swear every year it either rained or drizzled and poor hubby would get wet lighting the damn things. I cannot believe it. This year, the bloody weather was frigging perfect!!!!!!! Oh well, great for all the little kiddies this year.
Nothing new with me. My back has been relatively sorer than normal. I must dig out my Sweet Louise vouchers and go for an oncology massage. Still waiting on an appointment for a CT scan before my December oncology appointment. This has been my third weekend with having Thursday off work. It was great just having to go to work Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Still think I would prefer to have Monday off instead but its payroll day and so I am needed that day. Its the least I can do, they go out of their way to help me, so I can do this one thing. Four day weekend is a four day weekend either way!
Eek, I’m sitting up doing this post and my back is starting to ache terribly. Thats a sign for me to lie down straight. I’d pop the electric blanket on to get some heat on it but cripes, it is so warm, even with the gusty winds. Another option is to jump in the shower and run the hot tap on my back for a wee while. This can work wonders sometimes. Might just go do it...
Saturday 9th November 2019 - 10.04pm
